A Stellar Flare of Young Adult Writing and Visual Art

Finding Yourself Fading Away

tree-2487889_1920BY LAYA REDDY

I was always sitting on the
outer edge of the group
A lone meteor in weak orbit
I had no words that could get their gravity to                 pull me in.

Sometimes you would find me bowed,
over my desk, long hair
blanketing my face and hiding tears
Since I could never explain
Just what                                                                                I was crying for.

During recess on the playground
I was never picked early
for any of the team games
because nobody there
really did                                                                                know my name.

I always liked when we drew and
everyone colored suns with lots of smiley people,
but no one made tears and angry frowns
Which meant that other people feeling hollow as
An old tree                                                                             didn’t show it.

Occasionally, somebody would notice my drawn-out silences
And then they would ask me,
“Hey, are you okay?” I would say “Fine.”
Because what else do you say
Feeling singular but                                                              living every day plural.

When I sat alone and
I couldn’t hold it in
I clasped both hands over
my mouth to                                                                           stop the sobs.

I finally released those hands
to open my mouth
but I just couldn’t find
the words to                                                                            make a sound.

About the Author

Laya Reddy is fifteen years old, and I lives in Vernon Hills, Illinois. She currently attends Adlai E. Stevenson High School. She writes poetry to connect people with the shared human experience of emotions and as a refuge from the stresses of everyday life.

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This entry was posted on August 2, 2019 by in Poetry and tagged , , , .
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